The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I lay my head on his chest, hearing his slow heartbeat. My tears were flowing with bleeding tears, I could feel my heart falling apart. I wished those moments would last. I saw all my thoughts exploding in thousands of pieces. Bitter sweet memories melted away.
"Don't worry about me", i whispered in his ear.
He looked at me with pitiful eyes. Those sparkling brown eyes. I could not stand the look on his face. I looked away and hid my bleeding wrists. I blocked his words with my hands on my ears. I could not believe what was going to happen. Those piercing words stabbed through me. I fell to the ground, holding back my tears. He held my hand and pulled me back. A hug you can never forget. I could feel his tears on my shoulder. How I wished i could heal his wounds, or even heal my own.
"I'm so sorry, baby" , he said.
It was such a beautiful day, with the clouds covering the blue sky. There was wind in my hair. It was the perfect time to go to the beach. I was the little girl dragging a big guy to the beach. People were staring blankly at me. I guess it was because the way i was dressed. I signify death and that is not the mood you bring to the beach. I wanted to spent every moment of my life with him. He held my hand, I held my head high. I could only be myself when i was with him. Why must this happen to him?
I closed my eyes and the flashbacks started. I was standing there, at the back of the room, right in the corner, where we first met. His perfect smile looking straight at me. When I came back to reality, I saw him not on his bed but lying on the floor.
"Help me!", i screamed at the top of my lungs.
His face was pale white as he lays on the hospital bed. I climbed on the bed, laying beside him. His heart was unsteady. There were doctors and nurses rushing in and out of the ward. My headache seemed to be getting worse.
"Please don't leave me" , i said under my breath, hoping he did not hear me but he did.
He smiled and looked me in the eyes. It was a gesture telling me everything was going to be alright, even though it was not. The doctors did everything they could but the cancer spread too fast. He was told he had a few months to live, but now, he was left with only hours. I was the only one he could spend his last minutes with. I was filled with regret, I wished I could have done something more for him.
He shed a tear and closed his eyes. Then, he took his last breath. The doctors pulled me out of the ward, for I was crying and screaming and i might disturb other patients. I watched them take his body and move it to the morgue.
I looked out the window, and i saw him. He looked at me with his chocolate brown eyes and flew up to heaven with his angel wings. It was a moment not to forget. As i wait for my death, for fate to find me, to join him one day. My heart still kept on beating.
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for all the stories untold , for the effort wasted
stories filled my! mind!
What was that for?
filled ur heads with imagination
Lilah . nothing better to do nut to open a blog and crack her head to make up stories to bring out the emotions out of you.
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Hobbies? i also write lyrics and poems to fill my time. you don wanna hear me sing.
forever trappedS?
pieces of thoughts.
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