Monday, April 19, 2010
CA1 composition
Lost.
My mind went blank. Tons of images flew past my mind as I shut my eyes. The room was cold; it was making me insane. I stared at the broken door and my bleeding hands. These scars could never heal.
Thirty pairs of eyes were glued on me. Noone dared to make a move. I had guesses all of them knew my dirty little secret. I know I needed to devise a plan to erase all suspicion they had on me before this information reached the teachers.
"Don't worry, it will be alright. Nothing is going to happen to us", he whispers in my ears. I had always been the decent girl i ought to be. Some might consider me a nerd for my work would be done and i had given my teachers the respect they deserved.
I was unlocking the gate and took off my shoes. My mother stared at me the whole time. "Anytime now" , I said to myself. I covered my ears as my mother unleashed her wrath. "Do you know what time it is?" , she shouted. I rushed to my brother's room and locked the door; a habit I could never outgrow. He just hugged me tightly and tried to appease me. My never-ending flow of tears wet his tee-shirt but he did not seem to mind. I was only an hour late as I had remedial classes. My mother was in control of everything we did. She became paranoid after Dad left us.
After a few days, I realised that my brother tend to return home late. There was a time that he did not come home for two days and this really worried me. I crawled in his room while he was not around, only finding a grey haversack. I peeped into it and to my horror, I saw bundles of cash and packets of white substance. Immediately I knew what it was. When I had ample courage, I went up to him and asked him what he was doing. i was filled with disapointment every time he denied everything. "What else are you hiding from me??" He just opened his mouth but nothing came out.
I began to be uncontrollable. As I listened to the urchins devising a plan to trick their form teacher, I heard that the class would be empty during recess. I seized the opportunity to steal some handphones that was left in my classmates' bags. My brother was watching me the whole time. "What have you become ?" , he said. He banged the door behind me. He did it with enough strength that parts of the door chipped off and pierced through my hands. I felt no pain as my heart was numb. "Who is this monster that I see?", i said. I had lost every inch of respect I had for others. I had completely lost myself...
